[Verse 1]
Travel ban throughout the land, didn’t get a chance to visit
It’s crazy how much things can change in just a span of minutes
My family dealing with some things, but shit what family isn’t?
Couldn’t pay his rent, the pandemic took his family’s business
Now you could quit and tell your kids that Santa canceled Christmas
Or you can grind 'cause somebody got to man the trenches
And as a man it’s mandatory that I grant the wishes of everyone depending on me
A bandage to some damaged bitches
The type of girl that break your heart and then demand forgiveness
Who always claims she understands but then she stands against it
And I had framed all those photos I had scanned and printed
But my heart still hangs onto emotions that my camera didn’t
Damn I miss it
Thought we’d grow together but expanded different
Finally found myself and I don’t care 'cause my companion missing
Can’t no one get close to me, my siblings and my parents distant
Panicked then you vanished and I can’t find the advantage in it
Eventually I’ll be the man to meet your standard limits
Here to help you manage when you stranded and your lamp is diminished
All my life I ain’t held nothing in my hand this vivid
As that feeling we would hold inside back when the chance existed
Damn, I guess it’s over for real
I’m still surprised that you left although you told me you will
'Cause I kept on holding inside the shit you chose to reveal
I think what hurts me most is that I know how you feel
[Verse 2]
I’ll always be your soldier mama
‘Member what I told you mama
You could put your struggles on my shoulders now, I’m older mama
Both of us been waiting on the day that I get sober mama
But I’ve been rolling doja mama
Tryna keep composure mama
Bank account low cause ain’t no shows or no promoters mama
Only stayed afloat because you know I got that motor mama
Day that I stopped growing, gave up working on my floater mama
Studio my focus, ain’t gon’ stop until I’m goated mama
You know where I hold you mama
Middle of my heart forever
Tryna find my wife is hard cause next to you she hardly measure
Think I got my confidence from times you called me smart and clever
No it ain’t my pops, he gets no props, that n***a call me never
Used to never think about the past but now it’s partly pleasure
Flashing back before we fell apart and it was all together
Darkness in my heart my chest is started with a sparkled treasure
Lost it all in parts to every broad I gave a partial effort
Now I’m on my own when I’m alone I’m prone to fall from pressure
Never been too good at anything that might involve forever
Praying I evolve to not revolve around this awful weather
I’ll be better…ah whatever