[Intro]
Chef J

[Verse 1]
I cross my T's and dilate my eyes
I live with her in mind
They say, "Livin' life is free," I'll have to deny
'Cause everyday I pay the price
I wake up feelin' like last night was a wild car ride
Welcome to the fast life
I pop these, watch how the time flies
Outer-space, black skies lookin' like sci-fi
But that's only half of me
That's only half of me, that's one side
But don't be sad with me
And don't feel bad for me, it's alright

[Chorus]
Addictions remind me of the summer
'Mind you, I was younger
Trying to kill my hunger, yeah
Addictions remind me of the summer
'Mind you, I was younger
Trying to kill my hunger

[Verse 2]
Percocets, nicotine, red promethazine
Good sex, fast cars, I'd crash anything
That is a smoke screen, none of those things make me happy
Sold my soul, now I can buy anything
Sad but I'm not a bitch, don't try anything
'Cause I'll kill gladly, that's the only thing that make me happy
Turn the frown off when the racks in
Ain't no fentanyl up in my xans
If I could end all of the withdrawals
I would, but sadly, I can't
Thinkin' back, it probably started with the Vyvanse
Now I'm starin' at Oxycontin in my hand
Rehab'll only ruin my plans
On the bright side, I'm makin' progression
I was takin' four, now I'm takin' one less
'Til I drop the codeine in the Sunkist
Said, "Fuck it," grabbed the pint and poured the whole shit
[Chorus]
Addictions remind me of the summer
'Mind you, I was younger
Trying to kill my hunger, yeah
Addictions remind me of the summer
'Mind you, I was younger
Trying to kill my hunger

[Verse 3]
I will give you advice, but I don’t condone it
See I am a loner, I don’t know why
They tell me that I should slow down on substance, but I don’t listen
Cause if I go out it’s gon’ be flyin’
If I go out it’s gon’ be fine
If I check out girl, you’ll be fine
Will you think about me in the meantime?
If I check out girl I’ll be fine
If I OD girl I’ll be fine
If I OD girl you’ll be fine
Think about me in the meantime
I feel my body shutting down
I’m a ticking time-bomb
That’s the type of shit that I’m on
I feel my heart slowing down
I’m a ticking time-bomb
That’s the shit that I’m on
Gotta say goodbye to my mom
Sell my belongings, I won’t be here for too long
Did too many wrongs, yeah
Gotta say goodbye to my mom
I been here too long, I’ve done too many wrongs
Sell all my clothes
If I die tonight, just know I ain’t sell my soul
Walking towards the light, and I let it take control
Oh no, steps to an over-dose
Just another kid from the projects
But I’m not no ordinary project kid
I make you fit in for a casket
Then I fall into the blackness
As I blackout, in the darkness
Drive the car, crash it, don’t park it
Baby girl, don’t get me started
Too many Xans, I feel retarded, huh
Take my life is like taking out the garbage
Like taking out the trash
I know they wanna ah-
Allow me to update my status
Allow me to tell you I’m fine, when I’m lying
Yeah yeah, I’m so insecure, I don’t have a cure
I’m so insecure, I’m sick without of cure
Will I be cool? I don’t know, no I’m not so sure
I think I’ve crossed the line, I walk into the light
The devil wants my life, he may get a piece tonight
No sacrifice, I’m choosing sides
Crisis, crosses, I’m exhausted, I know [?]
N***as that be double crossin’
Give a fuck about that though, I’m exhausted
Poppin’ Mollies ‘till I OD, in a coffin
Mama said these drugs gon’ kill me
I’ll wait, I’ll wait
Have a date with destiny
I’m late, I’m late
Yeah I know they love me
But I hate, I hate, I hate, I hate
I tell ‘em I may kill myself, and not with the knife, or the noose
Just with the lean, pour a deuce
Just with the Percs, more than two
That’s how I feel, how ‘bout you?
Not in my feels, not in the least
I’m off the pills, I’m chasing thrills
Bitch in my sheets, we barely met
We on those xans, I love the sex
I feel like yes, uh uh uh
My brain is so gone
I’m lost, I’m so gone
Between the rock, and a hard place
Hide the drugs, in the crawl-space
In the rug, I don’t know where is the love? Someone tell me
Where’s the love? Someone help me
Where’s the love? She told her: “help me”
Fall in love, told me: “help me”
Fall in love, she told me: “help me”
Let’s talk about drugs, I’m too attached
I begged, i beg, for my heart back
They told me that they can’t do that
I [?]
Move around too much, keep my bags packed
Buy new clothes everywhere, spendin’ them racks
If I spend it them I know imma make it back
If I spend it, best believe that I’m gon’ make the shit back
They watch me bleed, and watch me leave
Don’t know what’s gotten into me
My life’s so interesting
I hide my insecurities with new clothes
Double G, I put it on my wardrobe
Keep it on me, if you want, we go to war, hoe
Kobe Bryant in the fourth, Imma score, hoe, aye
All I know is, count it up, count it
Uh, all I know is cry it out, leave it, dry it out, keep it
Vibe, I don’t wanna fuck, then it’s not my vibe
She gon’ give me top, baby that’s my vibe
Aye, that’s my vibe, bury me alive, kill all the drugs, social suicide
I got money, now I’m walking to the bank, then I laugh yeah
Please don’t touch my Fendi, Fendi
You don’t worry about touching Raf
Tell me in ad-, tell me in advanced, do you got a man?
Do you fuck with drugs? Do you do the Xans?
I been on the Percs, now I’m in a trance
I was up in hell, devil trynna dance
He don’t know me well, he still took a chance
Had to sell my soul, did it for the bands
Now I’m taking trips, talking ‘bout the ‘Shrooms
Then I took a trip, talking ‘bout to France
Just to buy some pants, Gucci on the bag, souvi’ on my ass
Ion gotta sag, Revenge on my body, I do that a lot
I get that for free, don’t look at the tags
May drop a collab
If you’re lost, my advice to you is not to fall for the same things that she does
I don’t feel right, I don’t feel right
I don’t even know if imma be fine
I’ll be getting high in the meantime
Up all night, sleep through the sunshine
It’s a full moon tonight
In the moon right?
Fuck dancin’, die in the moonlight, yeah
[Chorus]
Addictions remind me of the summer
'Mind you, I was younger
Trying to kill my hunger, yeah
Addictions remind me of the summer
'Mind you, I was younger
Trying to kill my hunger