The xx
Heather
[Intro: Josh Smith]
Heather, you know who you are...
This one's for you

[Verse 1: Josh Smith]
Jeans, sweatshirt, with no makeup on
People looking at her funny, they don’t know what’s wrong
Just a teen, but she’s seen some stuff you won’t believe
Being molested by her coach while on a soccer team
Struggling to recover but that the least of her worries
See there’s a story no one’s heard of and it such a burden to her
She’s hurting, put into Child Protective Services
When her mom had squeezed her neck and dropped her hard on the floor again
With the whole family watching, they ain’t do nothing
Acting like she’s fine at school, but, yo, she tired of frontin’
Self-esteem dwindling, belittling
Not feeling confident because her life ain’t what it should’ve been
And the worst of it is that that ain’t the worst of it, yet
Self-examination found a lump inside of her chest
She’s schizophrenic, she’s feeling manic, she starts to panic
It’s like the world is just closing in
A leaf detached from a tree, she’s blowing in the wind
In remission, but scared that cancer’s coming back again
Thinking about suicide, like her friend that actually did
It’s just too much that she don’t deserve, she wanted it to end
But Lord why? The girl is only sixteen
Worried that she’ll never get to follow her dreams
Little sister stuck at home, but she’s more like a daughter
Can’t stay with her crack head mother and her nonexistent father
Yeah, life falling apart
She picking the pieces up and hoping for a new start
It’s dark, she’s so scared of being all alone
She's calling and waiting patiently for somebody to answer the phone
But when they do, she just gets put on hold
God bless her poor breaking, aching, and shaken soul
Don’t wanna go home, so she stays late at school
Step into the size nines of Ms. Heather Nicole, let's go
[Verse 2: JP Silva]
Listen, I know how you feel
Dark empty mysterious still
Delirious to the point of oblivion
I could only imagine your opinion
Of your mom
Cuz I definitely had mine
And maybe we learn to forgive in time
But I feel the pain that you go through
You look for comfort as pain controls you
You struggled to breathe when you’re by yourself
Then when you with other n***as you somebody else
You put on a mask and hope that it last
Cuz you look at the past and saw how fast it went by
You think you’re okay as long as you believe in yourself
Till you realized you gave up a long time ago and put the book back on the shelf
You can’t believe how you kept on just going
Constant pain constantly flowing
You tears become blood as your sorrow starts showing
You sicken and bleaken as your pain is growing
Till you just have enough and your anger starts blowing
Staring at your room on that dark empty bed
Thinking everything he said
You cry and plead for God to help
You crumpled and bent down and knelt
Prayed for forgiveness and that out of goodness he’d spare you
But he didn’t answer and just stared at you
But you’re still standing Heather
I’m still standing and we can do it together
It don’t matter if it rain, let it rain
Like Eminem he said the wetter the better
So please I’m not gonna show signs of slowing down
I’ma be exposing and showing the world what I've become
Cuz if there's anyone to blow my parents will be one
I love you Heather hold it together
Cuz Birdie and I are gonna need you forever
[Verse 3: Josh Smith]
Yeah, I see you on the daily
You got me feeling worried sick because your life is crazy
But can you blame me? I’m just concerning for your safety
Cuz it seems like your situation is getting deeper lately
Hold up, I gotta slow it down
It pisses me off how no one ever comes around
You’re crying for help, but no one ever hears a sound
You just got me, JP and four / five more to hold you down
Some of the stuff you come to me with simply blows my mind
Like what you mean that you ain’t got nowhere to sleep tonight?
And what you mean telling me that you got kicked out the house?
I wish you could come with me so I could shelter you
But money’s tight at home and it’s like there’s nothing I can do
And then I see these dudes with money acting like a fool
Like only if they knew what kind of life you’re living through
Would they still drop these stacks on clothes and all these things they’re not gon’ use?
They probably would, cuz when you’re towards the top
You’re just worried about some fresh kicks that you’re tryna cop
When people lost towards the bottom just tryna steady rock
But they can’t when the government’s giving them that steady rock
That’s what happened to HEATHER, she’s just part of the system
Her daddy’s gone, but it’s hard for her to really miss him
She’s hoping for a better life, she’s on both knees and wishing
But it’s the same thing everyday, repeat it, wash it, and rinse it
HEATHER NICOLE,I want you to know this
You know I love you like a brother, but I don’t always show it
And I see you grinding, shining, and I praise you for it
Over the past couple of years, we’ve done a lot of growing
I’m proud of you, I’ll always be right by your side
And you know I’ll be there for you till the day I die
Life can only get better, so no need to cry
Wipe the tears up off your face and jump right up and touch the sky
[Verse 4: JP Silva]
Listen, I know how you feel
Dark empty mysterious still
Delirious to the point of oblivion
I could only imagine your opinion
Of your mom
Cuz I definitely had mine
And maybe we learn to forgive in time
But I feel the pain that you go through
You look for comfort as pain controls you
You struggled to breathe when you’re by yourself
Then when you with other n***as you somebody else
You put on a mask and hope that it last
Cuz you look at the past and saw how fast it went by
You think you’re okay as long as you believe in yourself
Till you realized you gave up a long time ago and put the book back on the shelf
You can’t believe how you kept on just going
Constant pain constantly flowing
You tears become blood as your sorrow starts showing
You sicken and bleaken as your pain is growing
Till you just have enough and your anger starts blowing
Staring at your room on that dark empty bed
Thinking everything he said
You cry and plead for GOD to help
You crumpled and bent down and knelt
Prayed for forgiveness and that out of goodness he’d spare you
But he didn’t answer and just stared at you
But you’re still standing HEATHER
I’m still standing and we can do it together
It don’t matter if it rain, let it rain
Like EMINEM he said the wetter the better
So please I’m not gonna show signs of slowing down
I’ma be exposing and showing the world what I've become
Cuz if there's anyone to blow my parents will be one
I love you HEATHER hold it together
Cuz BIRDIE and I are gonna need you forever