[Verse 1]
Filling in my calendar
Every hour with stuff to do
If I can't stop to think of it
I won't have time for missing you
I haven't called up my family
I'm avoiding my oldest friends
Maybe I'll just make some new ones
So I don't have to pretend I'm happy
Alone at the party again

[Chorus]
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
I can't hate you and trust me I've tried to
How long is this supposed to take
'Cause I love you and I need that to change

[Verse 2]
Maybe it was destructive
To go catch a crush
I've built this up into something
That it never was
But if my memory serves me
Like my self-worth rarely does
This started just like the ending
Trying to play it cool enough
And leading with an awkward hug
[Chorus]
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
I can't hate you and trust me I've tried to
How long is this supposed to take
'Cause I love you and I need that to change

[Bridge]
We joked that this would be easier
For whoever cared less
I guess that makes me the loser
But I'm trying my best

[Chorus]
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
I can't hate you and trust me I've tried to
How long is this supposed to take
'Cause I love you, I don't that to change
I need it to change