I wan't to be like, messy

I'm so insecure I think that i'll die before I drink
And i'm so caught up in the news
Of who likes me and who hates you
And i'm so tired that I might
Quit my job, start a new life
And they'd all be so disappointed
But who am I if i'm not exploited?
And i'm so sick of seventeen
I'm over this teenage dream
If someone tells me one more time ''enjoy your youth'' i'm gonna cry and I don't stick up for myself
I'm anxious , and nothing can help
And I wish i'd done this before
And I wish people liked mе more

All I did was try my best
This the kinda thanks I gеt?
Unrelentlessly upset (Ah ah ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could dissapear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here

(yeah)
I feel like no one likes me
And I hate the way i'm perceieved
I only have two real friends
And latly, i'm a nervous wreck
Cause I love people I don't like
And I hate every song I write
And i'm not cool, i'm not smart
And I can't even parrel park

All I did was try my best
This the kinda thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (Ah ah ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here

(yeah)
(just having a really good time)

Got a broken ego, broken heart
(yeah,yeah it's brutal out here)
And god, I don't even know where start