(Verse):
Look, plenty nights I would sleep and hear my mother cry
Too young to understand, but I would wonder why
Deadbeat daddy clicked it after another lie
Grew up thinking I wouldn't care if he fucking died
Momma tryna balance shit all on her own, didn't have a lot but had a decent home
By the look, there was a lot going on inside, shit I had to face I couldn't run and hide
Another home with plenty issues, watching all the treachery and petty issues
Grew up thinking that a magazine would fix my issues, but that shit gave me issues
Had no one to turn to, so I turned to a pistol
No one to confide with, feeling all alone in the noise and the violence
Blood from my nose, and my brother causing sirens
At war with a n***a I shared blood with, could never trust him
That's the reason why I function how I function
I would try to give him love, he wanted destruction
This was more than some sibling fighting and cussing
Broke down and by myself, did my reconstruction
Felt loveless, and now I'm this n***a fuck it
It's odd when your sibling, a person you should run to that lives under your ceiling
Gives you the feeling they could never be a hero to you, more so a villain, and you might have to kill him
When you can't escape the stress, it makes your mind become a prison
You sings songs of pain, they're ain't a soul that listens
Reaching out for anything that could novacade the aches and what could saves you near your finger tips but you just miss the distance
Distance, something that I definitely need, from people I'm supposed to love cause all I see is greed
Half-assed support or lack their of, There's no togetherness unless it's a benefit to their needs
Nobody I really talk to throughout this whole family, staying to myself cause I don't think they understand me
Most of them on bullshit, and I think about it every day
Pretty sure I wouldn't want to mingle with them anyway
Drama, every family got it's drama, but it's different when it seems that there's no place to be calm
Wasn't comfortable around her, but kept pushing for my mama
Cause I wanted to brighten her days with my commas
I got got scars and shit, from fam, friends, and some heartless bitch
That got the functions of my heart to switch
First she faded the love then cut it short without barber clips, she lucky that I didn't smack cause I'm a marksmen
I was gonna take aim and shoot that n***a, black garbage bags and kapoof that n***a, remove that n***a
Breathe and remove her pictures, and the things I wanted to do to her cuz
Man I hated that bitch, I regret I ever dated that bitch, wanted to hold her in the air and start shaking that bitch, have my goons come in her crib straight breaking that bitch, if she bugging during the raid start spraying that bitch
Then it hit me, I really have no need for the broad
You ain't the woman that you think that you are, surprised we made it that far
Caught up in memories that I held for too long, you ain't the same one I saw shorty you ain't worth the fall
So now I don't need a person to call, the money coming in steady for me working my flaws
Flipping words bout the hurt in my heart, y'all were just earning your part
Man fuck that, I'll put the burner to y'all, man I'm murdering y'all
All that damage, now It's "Let's get it together"
My heart black, y'all done turned me into an enemy forever
I'm back better than ever, with MAC 10s, Berettas
Speak a lick of me wrong, get your tongue back in the lead or
For green, you'll see shells like I got beef with shredder
Or ops gon have to tell the world peace like meta
To go getter, she bad I'm a go getter
I'm fire, there's no better than I
You don't know better, approached like the dope sellers
No need for a notice, I'm coke bitch
The pusher of what they need and everybody knows it
Heart frozen from moments that I've chosen
A hole closed to ones who leaved my soul broken up
Now it's fuel that's been moving me for years
I'ma force you to see your face while I hydrate of your tears
They hands out, I'm shooting them, I ain't cool with them
I'd rather school my n***as on fishing, not giving a school to em'
But that'll make me real in their eyes and it got them hooked on the thought of up in the pole 'til I put steel in their eyes
I'm feeling their vibe, adapting and presenting it as karma
Nevermind, don't watch them die slow, experience nirvana
For revenge I gotta bomb em', when I want something it happens
Turn your fit into a yarmulke for thinking that I'm capping
The beast with the hardest bite, the fighter with the sharpest right
I'm outside, the sun's down, now survive the darkest night, n***a