The Unthanks
Free Will & Testament
Given free will but within certain limitations
I cannot will myself to limitless mutations
I cannot know what I would be if I were not me
I can only guess me
So when I say that I know me, how can I know that
What kind of spider understands arachnophobia
I have my senses and my sense of having senses
Do I guide them or they me
The weight of dust exceeds the weight of settled objects
What can it mean, such gravity without a center
Is there freedom to un-be
Is there freedom from will-to-be
Sheer momentum makes us act this way or that way
We just invent or just assume a motivation
I would disperse, be disconnected, is this possible
What are soldiers without a foe
Be in the air but not be air, be in the no air
Be on the loose
Neither compacted nor suspended
Neither born nor left to die
Had I been free, I could have chosen not to be me
Demented forces push me madly 'round a treadmill
Demented forces push me madly 'round a treadmill
Let me off please, I am so tired, let me off please, I am so very tired