Dear God I think it's time that we have a talk my fucking head is hurting feel like I'm falling apart we got worthless n***as out here breaking loyal girls hearts and when the smoke comes they wanna act like pussies and hide in the dark well god why me why are there tears in my eyes when I fall asleep why dont my parents understand my plea why does feel like everyone fucking hates me well now I'm lost still live in my thoughts while all these guys out here being thots while I look up to God asking what I got well fuck I just wanna die find the fucking 9 and end this life fuck a goodbye fuck my life man this shit ain't right why God why do I feel like this sick of being stuck wit the same old shit tired of being judged like I'm a skank ass bitch thinking I maybe just be a world glitch I try to ease the pain medication but that shit just got my mind racing so I begin lacing more I start facing doctor say I'm pacing to be dead by 30 but I hate my life fuck It i wanna die early but surely I'm looked down on everytime something goes wrong relationships no longer keep bonds but these suicidal thoughts is heavy popping xanax riding shotgun in Chevy saying will these bitches just kill me already but god then answers back and says my child I see your pain I understand wide those tears off your face and try to understand why I did this my daughter because I knew in the end it would make your faith stronger