[Verse 1: PdotO]
I woke up
Screaming fuck the world
I puff chess
Yes I pump my chest like "What's next?"
I done been through it
I've seen hell, shit I lived through it
Y'all can't tell me shit
It's real life, y'all think it's just music
God tell me how it feel, how it feel
My spirit is bruised, Lord just show me how to heal
I feel I lost patience
Growing dark, I think my soul tainted
I try to numb it with the liquor but the fall breaks it
Broken glass, I see my face through the crack, eyes
I lack fright, cause I'm fucked up still
I feel the devil tryna touch my kid, who would've thought though?
As I stand on this crossroads
I need money by the boatload
But money can't save me, maybe drugs, maybe coke dope
Tears falling, shit I'm missing my baby
I think I'm going crazy, I'm numb still
[Hook: T. Phoenix]
Why do I still see your face here in my dreams?
In the corners of my mind, these memories
Through the smoke, the fire and the pain
Didn't think they'd just play over again
Look into the light and see my spirit free
Bring me my love
Bring me my love, oh oh
Cause I can't let go, let go of you
Cause memories don't live like people do
[Verse 2: PdotO]
I'm a man cause I stand for mine
Wish I could turn back the hands of time so I can smile again
This ain't life
This ain't light
Dear Lord, why you crush my soul?
This ain't right
Pastor told me "Keep the faith alive"
Cause the pain get better with time, that ain't right
So I walk through the fire try to rescue my angel
Walls keep caving, talkin' 'bout it is painful
Walked away with my life, so I gotta be thankful
What the fuck do I gotta rejoice to if it ain't you?
I'm living on a brim now
But my family keep telling me to calm down
But I'm a man, I'm a soldier 'til I fall down
I work hard daily, my position is a boss now
God, I'm missing my baby
I think I'm going crazy, I'm numb still
[Spoken Words: DJ C-Live]
July 27, 2015 is a date.. I'll never forget
The weirdest thing is that, I had just had a chat with my ex girlfriend that very same day
Talking about how I wanna take my kids out of that area, out of that house into a bigger house
How I wanted the best for them
That very same day
And the last thing I remember is.. him saying goodbye in my bedroom, you know
He, he was at the edge of the bed, saying "Goodbye daddy, Coco Dreams"
Yeah
He'll be forever in my heart
[Hook: T. Phoenix]
Why do I still see your face here in my dreams?
In the corners of my mind, these memories
Through the smoke, the fire and the pain
Didn't think they'd just play over again
Look into the light and see my spirit free
Bring me my love
Bring me my love, oh oh
Cause I can't let go, let go of you
Cause memories don't live like people do
(I can't let go, let go of you)
(Cause memories don't live, like people do)