[Time: Verse 1]
Day one was annoying, so was number 2
One week later the mirrors saying, what are you going to do?
I never answered, I just broke it
Baboon on my back, i grabbed it and choked it
I never provoked it, the past can time travel
I never dealt with it, that's why I unraveled
Stayed silent around my friends, especially my family
Blamed it on myself so it's fuck you and damn me
I cussed it under a rug I thought it would help me
I dismissed the filthy and let the past melt me
That rocking horse turned into a Pegasus and flew away
So did my childhood, soon I'll be cold and grey
Cremated by closed ears, instead of love he chose fear
Clothed in gossip, guilt and beer
I thought those pills had a side effect of forgive and forget
I see a pile of orange bottles but don't worry I'll quit
Percocet in my stomach, razor blade in my liver
I brushed my shoulders off into the Ganges river
Temporary relief is better then no relief
But the past can be a bitch she can sneak into your sleep
Day dreams or day mares I call em day scares
And thanks to all my teachers for the good day care
Music's my escape, imagination is my Lucy
I'm already gone so you don't have to lose me
[Time: Chorus]
Bad things happen to children along with adults
They say tell me what's wrong it won't be difficult
They say that's not true now wash your mouth with soap
Do you want to live or die I think I'm doing both
[Time: Verse 2}
I sold Freud some coke he said I told you so
He said it's about sex I said it's about blow
They say it's about that money till you get that fame
But if you don't have the money then it's all the same
That baby rattle turned into a microphone
And that apartment turned into a psycho's home
That last verse was a prayer for both you and me
This verse might just be my fucking eulogy
I never walked through the valley of the shadow of death
I set up camp there and for 24 years and slept
I never wept until I was 19
My tears ran back up my eyes, reality is frightening
Everyone's life sucks, so its selfish to let your eyes erupt
Denial was my crutch, now I'm legless as fuck
I made it to 25 I guess you can call it luck
The past can be molasses it can super glue you stuck
But I broke free and ran towards sanity
Music is interpretation of reality that's why I use profanity
Remembering is dismembering am I in the stars yet?
The only way to reboot the brain is an injury or car wreck
I don't want either, therapist invisible
Without forgiveness your whole life is miserable
I broke my time machine and traded my Delorian
My inner child's a boy again, I relate to joy again
PSA's used to tell me what to do
But I got knowledge of self from everything i been thru
Music's my escape, imagination is my Lucy
I'm already gone so you don't have to lose me
[Time: Chorus]
Bad things happen to children along with adults
They say tell me what's wrong it won't be difficult
They say that's not true now wash your mouth with soap
Do you want to live or die I think I'm doing both